Beautiful Monster

A breathtaking, exquisitely crafted memoir about a trans person’s singular journey through breaching the boundaries of gender—across generations, cultures and borders—to become his truest, most authentic self. Nearing the age of forty, with an entire life already lived as a woman—half in Colombia, half in the US—Miles Borrero comes face to face with his father’s impending death. Suddenly realizing that he has been stalling his transition for fear of losing his family’s love, this moment catalyzes Miles’s determination to be fully known as his father’s son before it is too late. In Beautiful Monster, Miles chronicles his unusual childhood, by turns riveting and hilarious, in ’80s and ’90s Colombia during the Pablo Escobar years, as well as his move to Salt Lake City to pursue acting and the winding trajectory that eventually lands him in the New York City yoga scene. Within these very different cultures, the realities of being queer and trans echo poignantly through the triumphs, heartbreaks, family dynamics, spiritual pursuits, and relationships that propel Miles along his path. Sublimely nuanced and written in ravishing prose that is as unique and irresistible as its subject, Beautiful Monster is one person’s story of navigating the pressures to perform femininity while becoming a gender outlaw. Brimming with wonder, humor, and mythos, entertaining and enlightening in equal measure, this book offers a compelling case for embracing one’s true nature.

Written from the perspective of a teenager, this chilling psychological thriller follows Tessa as she copes with the blood-stained event that changed her life forever. Set in Perth, Western Australia, this gripping novel demonstrates how Tessa clings to anorexia and to her sinister, imaginary friend, Ned—her greatest support and her staunchest ally who is privy to her deepest secrets—in an attempt to deal with the loss of her brother and the resulting change in her parents.

Hank Donner-Varian yearns for something beyond his perfect, but routine marriage. Forbidden fantasy beckons until a chance encounter with the enigmatic and devastatingly sexy Abbott Lowery turns curiosity into a dangerous obsession. Hank’s unaware of the sinister depths beneath Lowery's facade. When Hank's flirtation spirals into nightmare, he's thrust into a world of horror orchestrated by a man who once embodied his deepest desires. In a heart-pounding race against time, Beautiful Monster immerses readers in a gripping tale of passion, deception, and survival. Can Hank navigate the treacherous maze of obsession and deceit before it's too late? Or will the irresistible stranger prove to be Hank's downfall, plunging him into a nightmare from which escape is impossible?

The first definitive edition in English of writings by poet, painter, pickpocket-plagiarist, and consummate anti-artist Francis Picabia, one of Dada's leading figures. Poet, painter, self-described funny guy, idiot, failure, pickpocket, and anti-artist par excellence, Francis Picabia was a defining figure in the Dada movement; indeed, André Breton called Picabia one of the only “true” Dadas. Yet very little of Picabia's poetry and prose has been translated into English, and his literary experiments have never been the subject of close critical study. I Am a Beautiful Monster is the first definitive edition in English of Picabia's writings, gathering a sizable array of Picabia's poetry and prose and, most importantly, providing a critical context for it with an extensive introduction and detailed notes by the translator. Picabia's poetry and prose is belligerent, abstract, polemical, radical, and sometimes simply baffling. For too long, Picabia's writings have been presented as raw events, rule-breaking manifestations of inspirational carpe diem. This book reveals them to be something entirely different: maddening in their resistance to meaning, full of outrageous posturing, and hiding a frail, confused, and fitful personality behind egoistic bravura. I Am a Beautiful Monster provides the texts of of Picabia's significant publications, all presented complete, many of them accompanied by their original illustrations.

“Tantimedh’s vivid and divinely beleaguered Ravi is a triumph of the fabulous. Introduce yourself to him immediately.” —Alan Moore Enjoy “the best high-concept television show you’ve never seen” (Alan Moore) in this second book of the Ravi PI series, featuring detective Ravi Chandra Singh and his team at the gleefully amoral, unfailingly dangerous secret agency Golden Sentinels. When Ravi’s colleagues at Golden Sentinels discover that he sees gods in moments of heightened anxiety and stress, they are surprisingly fine with it. They even encourage him to incorporate his visions into his work, especially now that the cases have become more intense, with many hidden risks at play. But their latest case—a search for a dead Russian oligarch’s last will and testament—leads to more than anyone expected: a missing heir, murderous relatives, and geopolitical implications. So, when Ravi’s boss sends him to Los Angeles to wait out the heat, it’s almost a relief…until Ravi’s past catches up to him. In this thrilling and complex sequel to the “exciting and dynamic” (Deepak Chopra) Her Nightly Embrace, nothing is what it seems as Ravi stumbles upon a dangerous scheme that involves the CIA, MI5, and a wanted man with a $20 million price on his head.

This is a unique book about domestic abuse, fighting cancer, drunk driving, texting and driving, teenage pregnancy, suicide, addiction, bullies, love, dating, marriage, betrayal, rebounding, loneliness, current events, celebrities, super heroes, mentoring and much more. What is unique about it? It is done in poetry form and each poem has websites and phone numbers for easy reference plus full page hand drawn illustrations that match each poem. I guess I would name it self help poetry if I had to put a label on it. Enjoy!

Playboy. Socialite. Frivolous and Wicked.Alexander Caldwell needs to settle down.Hence the giant white house he just bought in the suburbs.The one that backs up to the house filled with three single women living in it.They all have their sights set on him...but it's her he can't get out of his head.Alexander has absolutely no place getting involved with a teenage girl with the world in her eyes.But he does.Tortured. Lonely. Desperate to run.Sunny Thorn needs to get out of her mother's house.To do that, she needs money.Hence taking the job painting a mural in Alexander Caldwell's pool house.The man whose eyes follow her. The man with the sculpted jaw and commanding presence. The man who is way too old for her.When Sunny has the chance to get out of Pineridge and start a future of her own, he should let her go.But he doesn't.Beautiful Monster is a standalone age-gap forbidden romance from the author of the Wicked Hearts series.

"There are so many moments that I could have done differently, so many words I wish I could take back. Hit pause, step out of the scene and tweak the narrative, shovel the context, and change the outcome. But who would that make me, where would I be, and how different would my life have become?" How do you, as a man, speak out about abuse? When, as a boy, you're taught not to cry or be too sensitive. To keep your emotions closed off from everybody else. You hold your story and your feelings so near to you in an attempt to stay in control. While your shame burns and grows like the scars in your mind, left there by her words. And the ones on your body carved there by her hands.How do you fight when she consumes you. Her face appearing literally in every frame on the walls that surround you? You are more loyal to her than any of her addictions. Who are you to claim she hurt you? To allow your pain to leak out? You know you'd never be able to quantify the guilt if you were to shout a little louder, hit back! How do you love her so much that you've made peace with the notion that staying means you'll die there, but leaving is not an option?