The Hurt Of My Pain Behind My Smile

Are you hiding behind your smile? Do you want to be free from the hurt of your past? Well, this book is for you! Let go of the pain from your past and move forward!

Karla was a misguided youth who witnessed everything that she was supposed to be protected from. Growing up without a father in her life and a mother who didn't know how to show her love forced her to go out into the world unprepared for the realities of it. She became a mother at the age of eighteen by a man who was six years older with children. Although she never felt love at home, she still opened herself up to the possibilities of being loved and loving someone in return. That search led her to a young man whom she eventually spent eight years of her life with and shared two more children together. During their time together she suffered from mental, physical, and emotional abuse, causing her to finally get up enough courage to leave him. Single again, Karla started doing things that she never had the opportunity to do while with such a controlling man. She started to drink and go out more, which eventually caused her to make decisions that affected and disrupted her household. She met a few men and settled down with one that caught her eye. While trying to pick up the pieces of her life, she started doing a little better and was looking forward to her future without the hurt and pain that she suffered through for years. Trying to better her relationship with her siblings, she invited them to her apartment so that they could spend time together, but nothing would prepare herself for what lay ahead. One night with her family had turned her whole world upside down and left her fighting for her freedom. With everything that she had already gone through, nobody would have ever expected for her to end up in jail, not even her. Leaving behind her children, Karla had to adjust to her new life behind bars. There was no turning back now, she had to fight harder than she had ever fought before. During that fight, she was sexually assaulted by a male deputy that worked at the courthouse. Leaving her with distrust for the same people put in place to protect her, she started to give up and accept things as they were, but God didn't want that for her, so He gave her the vision and sign that she had been waiting for. After being away for almost two years, Karla was released back out into the same cold, cruel world that she was abruptly taken from and had to start rebuilding what was torn down. She also needed to repair the broken relationship with her children, but none of that would come easy for her. Battling depression, being homeless, and running into people that had taken advantage of her instead of helping only made her stronger, and after two years of parole Karla packed the few things she had along with her children and headed for a new life in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania, leaving behind everything that was meant to break her and starting a new life for herself and children.

The Tears Behind my Smile is a long-life journey of an abandoned girl who faces challenges in every walk of her life and the strength she gains from each experience she suffers. It is not an autobiography with an ordinary beginning and a predictable ending; instead the book depicts a series of emotions occurring in the author's life and how she alters herself from a self-pitying girl into a strong, resilient woman. It will enlighten the readers on not to depend on anyone and become the superhero in their own story. A hard but comforting lesson to learn – Loving and forgiving your own self is important because if today you won’t do it, tomorrow you’ll see others taking advantage of your weaknesses. No matter how many mistakes you are making in your life, if you are willing to learn from everything you go through, sooner or later, you will become the best version of yourself and that without anyone else’s support.

Step through the looking glass and into her world. With transparency, intimacy and candor, the authoress shares her inspiring life story in this incredibly honest and poignant memoir. In reading her memoir, you will get a glimpse of the first 30 years of her life as she witnessed firsthand the greatest gifts that she could have ever received- Gods mercy, forgiveness and redemption. After enduring years of adversity and hardship, the authoress chronicles her remarkable personal journey of strength, tenacity and willpower. A woman fated to not amount to much in life, through the power of God she transformed herself from being a victim to a victor. She knows all about overcoming the odds. What should have destroyed her destiny only gave her the courage to live triumphantly. Every circumstance she endured has elevated her to a higher level of glory in God. Her story is sure to inspire and encourage you. She believes that the transparency of her memoir will allow you to be confident in God and have faith in Him, regardless of the situations you are going through. Currently a licensed real estate professional, small business manager and entrepreneur, she has an associates degree in human services and a bachelors degree in psychology. She lives with her two children in Connecticut. Her story exemplifies that through God, all things are possible and through Him we are indeed MORE THAN CONQUERORS! In her memoir, the authoress prophetically intercedes for those are experiencing similar circumstances. Intercessory prayers are available to you in this book.

It happened to me... Wait. Before we go on there something you should know. This is NOT a 'once upon a time' story, it doesn't have a 'happily ever after, ' it's not filled with fairy tales and fables, there is no Prince Charming, the damsel in distress will not be saved, and the guy does not get the girl. This is a journey into the damaged mind of a young girl...

This trans-formative book grips readers from the beginning and takes you on an emotional ride through the eyes of a child of a mother suffering with schizophrenia as she matures into womanhood. Journey Untold will make you laugh, make you cry, and most importantly spark a conversation about how people can cope with life?s challenges. Mental illness is something that is still not talked about in the many communities, but especially in communities of color, like the one I grew up in, in the U.S. Virgin Islands. This memoir offers a look at mental illness from my perspective as the child of a mother suffering from the effects of schizophrenia.

You Don't Know My Story is a book of 50 poems or small clippings of my life. I was inspired to write this book because of past experiences (mostly painful). In this book, I pray to God or have a conversation with God about what's going on in my life and ask Him to help me get through it. Through experiences with being a single parent, bad relationships, sicknesses, multiple family deaths, backstabbing friends, family hurt, and church hurt, You Don't Know My Story came about. My life is a story that is sometimes hidden with a smile. But through everything that I've been through and still going through, God has always been right there. So, this book is to encourage you to keep holding on and know that you're not alone in this Christian fight. Thank you to everyone who supported this book. Special "Thanks" to everyone in my past and present that motivated me to write this book. May God continue to Bless you!

The Pain Behind My Smile is a true story of my journey to finding my true self. My experience of true peace, happiness, and love for myself without carrying the weight of my past hurts. If you are a parent, a survivor of child abuse, neglect, molestation, rape, physical abuse, domestic violence, emotional or mental abuse, it does not matter your sex or age. My story is for you because you matter. I did not think I mattered for years. Then, I dedicated nineteen and a half years to working with children who had been through and were dealing with the same challenges I faced as a child. I found that we as adults are too trusting with our children. We often think we know people well. They would not dare harm our children. But, unfortunately, that is so far from the truth. I have spoken to many survivors who knew their perpetrators. But unfortunately, we do not have vital conversations around inappropriate behaviors which lead to child victimization or sexual abuse. I offer suggestions of what to look for as I experienced victimization of many sorts. I am a certified Child & Youth Care Practitioner and a member of The Ohio Association of Child and Youth Care Professionals Inc. Once a foster mom turned to an adoptive parent who has a passion for working with at-risk youth. Sharing my story was an opportunity for healing. I could purge all those feelings and share my truth to free the little girl inside who endured so much. It was not an easy task to share my story. I was that little girl all over again. She set the tone.