Before I Leave You A Memoir On Suicide Addiction And Healing

When Robert Imbeault began writing this book, he did so with the intention of ending his life once the book was finished. Robert was in the midst of a five-year suicidal drug and alcohol binge that began after the sudden resurfacing of a buried memory from when he was eight years old. Robert turned to writing, determined to chronicle his life before and after the violent encounter that shattered his reality. As his life inched back toward normalcy, Robert found new reasons to keep writing. After a series of small steps forward, and a few steps back, Robert found his way to sobriety. He regained his health and began to treat himself and everyone around him with love and kindness. Today, Robert enjoys a life filled with gratitude and joy he thought he'd never live to see. In Before I Leave You, he shares his real and raw account of how he clawed his way back from the brink, forgave himself, and wrote a new ending to his story.

From critically acclaimed, #1 Amazon Bestselling author Robert Imbeault comes I Can't Believe How Well It's Going: Essays-a brand- new collection of essays filled with stories of questionable decision making, biased observations, and sincere vulnerability. TL;DR? If you want to laugh, buy this book. In I Can't Believe How Well It's Going, I will regale you with tales of stand-up comedy, a lifelong skirmish with religion, and losing my shit during a 10-day silent meditation retreat. I whine about losing a friendship because I was an asshole, discovering I had an older sibling after forty-five years, and how an interview with an author of erotica changed the way I view porn. I explain why I trained in a boxing club for over a decade to never actually fight, how changing a diaper at thirty-thousand feet went very wrong, and how a May-September romance went right. I also share something incredibly personal. If this is uninteresting to you, then there is no need to read this book, but I still hope you do because it might make you laugh. There's definitely science that proves laughing helps reduce stress, and reducing stress can help improve and even save your life, which means that science supports the claim that reading my book might save your life. But if you hate the book and don't laugh, you might want to tell people how much you hate it, which gives you purpose. Science also maintains that having a purpose helps reduce stress, and reducing stress can help improve and even save your life, which means that there's even more science to support the claim that reading my book might save your life. Just stating the facts here, folks.

This extraordinary investigation of the death of the author's grandson yields a powerful memoir of addiction, grief, and the stories we choose to tell our families and ourselves. Jared Kindred left his home and family at the age of eighteen, choosing to wander across America on freight train cars and live on the street. Addicted to alcohol most of his short life, and withholding the truth from many who loved him, he never found a way to survive. Through this ordeal, Dave Kindred's love for his grandson has never wavered. Leave Out the Tragic Parts is not merely a reflection on love and addiction and loss. It is a hard-won work of reportage, meticulously reconstructing the life Jared chose for himself--a life that rejected the comforts of civilization in favor of a chance to roam free. Kindred asks painful but important questions about the lies we tell to get along, and what binds families together or allows them to fracture. Jared's story ended in tragedy, but the act of telling it is an act of healing and redemption. This is an important book on how to love your family, from a great writer who has lived its lessons.

A wrenchingly honest, eloquent memoir “about true nourishment that comes not from [eating] but from engaging on a spiritual path."—Los Angeles Times In this brave and perceptive account of compulsion and the healing process, Bullitt-Jonas describes a childhood darkened by the repressive shadows of her alcoholic father and her emotionally reclusive mother, whose demands for excellence, poise, and self-control drove Bullitt-Jonas to develop an insatiable hunger. What began with pilfering extra slices of bread at her parents' dinner table turned into binges with cream pies and pancakes, sometimes gaining as much as eleven pounds in four days. When the family urged her father into treatment, the author recognized her own addiction and embarked on the path to recovery by discovering the spiritual hunger beneath her craving for food.

Kiera Van Gelder's first suicide attempt at the age of twelve marked the onset of her struggles with drug addiction, depression, post-traumatic stress, self-harm, and chaotic romantic relationships-all of which eventually led to doctors' belated diagnosis of borderline personality disorder twenty years later. The Buddha and the Borderline is a window into this mysterious and debilitating condition, an unblinking portrayal of one woman's fight against the emotional devastation of borderline personality disorder. This haunting, intimate memoir chronicles both the devastating period that led to Kiera's eventual diagnosis and her inspirational recovery through therapy, Buddhist spirituality, and a few online dates gone wrong. Kiera's story sheds light on the private struggle to transform suffering into compassion for herself and others, and is essential reading for all seeking to understand what it truly means to recover and reclaim the desire to live.

Not everyone is ready for what I divulge. Some may think I go too far. People have asked me what the catalyst of my drug addiction was. I look inside myself and try to answer honestly. But there is no "one" thing. I believe it was a combination of many things starting with my lineage. Most have heard of Yin and Yang, Nature vs Nurture and Karma but these are only theories. In an attempt to answer the question I have put my life story, from conception to 21 years old into "Pink

Three years after giving up drink, Jowita Bydlowska found herself throwing back a glass of champagne like it was ginger ale. "It's a special occasion," she said to her boyfriend. And indeed it was. It was a party celebrating the birth of their first child. It also marked Jowita's immediate, full-blown return to alcoholism and all that entails for a new mother who is at first determined to keep her problem a secret. Her trips to liquor stores are in-and-out missions. Perhaps she's being paranoid, but she thinks people tend to notice the stroller. Walking home, she stays behind buildings, in alleyways, taking discreet sips from a bottle she's stored in the diaper bag. She know she's become a villain: a mother who drinks; a mother who endangers her child. She drinks to forget this. And then the trouble really starts. Jowita Bydlowska's memoir of her relapse into addiction is an extraordinary achievement. The writing is raw and immediate. It places you in the moment--saddened, appalled, nerve-wracked, but never able to look away or stop turning the pages. With brutal honesty, Bydlowska takes us through the binges and blackouts, the self-deception and less successful attempts to deceive others, the humiliations and extraordinary risk-taking. She shines a light on the endless hunger of wanting just one more drink, and one more again, while dealing with motherhood, anxiety, depression--and rehab. Her struggle to regain her sobriety is recorded in the same unsentimental, unsparing, sometimes grimly comic way. But the happy outcome is evidenced by the existence of this brilliant book: she has lived to tell the tale.

Twelve tense hours, three women, and the suicide standoff that turns one family's little piece of heaven into a scene from hell Ronnie Farnham's husband is supposed to move out today. But when Jeff pulls into the driveway drunk, with a shotgun in the front seat, she realizes nothing about the day will go as planned. The next few hours spiral down in a flash, unlike the slow disintegration of their marriage-and whatever part of that painful unraveling is Ronnie's fault, not much else matters now but these moments. Her family's lives depend on the choices she will make-but is what's best for her best for everyone? Based on a real event from the author's life, The Far End of Happy is a chilling contemporary novel. Fans of Mary Kubica, Diane Chamberlin, and Rosalind Noonan will be on the edge of their seats during this story of one troubled man, the family that loves him, and the suicide standoff that will change them all forever. Also From Kathryn Craft: The Art of Falling-/strongPenelope Sparrow, a 28-year-old dancer, has spent her entire life focusing on the perfection of her body. But when she wakes up in a Philadelphia hospital unable to move after a near-fatal accident, she can't remember the events leading up to her crushing 14-story fall. What readers are saying about The Far End of Happy "This is one hell of a powerful book with a message. It's a work of fiction but by God it's near to truth." "The story is tense and heartbreaking as it takes you through the twelve hours Ronnie has to endure as she waits for Jeff's fate to be decided." "This is the kind of story that makes you appreciate what you have and see the world a little differently than you did before." "The Far End of Happy is a tragic, yet hopeful story of human resilience." "THE FAR END OF HAPPY is an extraordinarily compelling book, founded in an extraordinary comprehension of human nature, addiction, denial-and love, familial bonds, and character strength and integrity." What reviewers are saying about The Far End of Happy "This novel is the very definition of a page-turner as it follows a twelve hour stand-off between a man threatening suicide and the police."-Huffington Post "This title is based on the author's experience with a standoff involving her husband, which adds real, raw, emotion to the plot. Framing the novel within a 12-hour period keeps the pages turning"-Library Journal "...a heartbreaking story packed with tension and brimming with humanity."-Lori Nelson Spielman, #1 international bestselling author of The Life List "A compelling read, an unflinching exploration of one of life's most inexplicable horrors."-New York Journal of Books "Kathryn Craft keeps the tension edge-of-your-seat suspenseful in The Far End of Happy..."- Kate Moretti, author of the New York Times bestselling Thought I Knew You, and Binds That Tie "A complex and gripping story of broken hearts, lives, and marriages that will tear you apart from beginning to end."-Steena Holmes, New York Times and USA Today bestselling author of The Memory Child and Finding Emma "An incredibly honest and courageous exploration of a marriage torn apart by neglect and threats of suicide."-Mary Kubica, author of The Good Girl