Dead Inside

A young hospital security guard with a disturbingly unique taste in women. A maternity doctor with a horrifically unusual appetite. When the two of them meet, they embark on a journey of self-discovery while shattering societal norms and engaging in destructively aberrant behavior. As they unwittingly help each other understand a world in which neither seems to belong, they begin to realize what it truly means to be alive...And that it might not always a good thing.

"Chandler Morrison is one of the most visceral and uncompromising writers of his generation, and Dead Inside is a nightmarish, unforgettable work of fiction." --- Donald Ray Pollock, author of THE DEVIL ALL THE TIME "Not since Peter Sotos' SPECIAL has a book lifted my brows like this. This is Advanced Graduate Level Necrophilia, where mankind's worst taboo is utilized as a vehicle for sociopolitical commentary, not to mention a slap-in-the-face dose of outright subversion to remind the reader that the road to happiness doesn't end with IMAX flicks, Facebook, and Red Lobster. Consider Morrison's description, for instance, of a pretty doctor but with 'attractiveness marred only by the fact that she isn't dead'; a modern-age parallel to the mystical 'la petite mort,' and Poe's subtextual message in 'Ligeia,' etc. Outrage, rampant political-incorrectness, and misanthropy-as-life-direction are the moving parts by which this engine runs. The easily offended be forewarned!" --- Edward Lee, Author of THE BIGHEAD and THE PIG When DEAD INSIDE hit shelves in 2015, it shocked the nation with its mordantly transgressive themes and graphic depictions of shockingly deviant behavior. Now, in this new edition, the text has been updated to include new material that had originally been deemed too unsettling for publication. Readers will also find a preface by the author, in which he laments the prevalence of the American Troll in today's society, as well as an excerpt from his upcoming novel, HATE TO FEEL.

In this bleak and disturbingly erotic debut novel, iconoclast Chandler Morrison provides readers with a dark exploration of the nature of death, individuality, and generational identity. Along the way, lines will be crossed, taboos will be violated, and common decency will take an extended leave of absence. This is not for the faint of heart or weak of stomach. Or anyone who enjoyed Fifty Shades of Grey. A young hospital security guard with a disturbingly unique taste in women. A maternity doctor with a horrifically unusual appetite. When the two of them meet, they embark on a journey of self-discovery as they shatter societal norms while engaging in destructive and abhorrent behavior. As they unwittingly help each other understand a world in which neither of them seems to belong, they begin to realize what it truly means to be alive...and that it might not always be a good thing.

Post Secret meets World War Z in this chilling vision of the fallout following a global zombie pandemic. A gradual mutation of a virulent strain of super flu gives rise to millions of the undead, who quickly overwhelm treatment facilities and swarm cities around the world, leaving survivors on their own against a legion of the infected. This chilling story is told through the scraps of paper, scrawled signs, and cryptic markers left by survivors as they struggle to stay alive and find those they ve lost in a world overrun by zombies. Through these found notes and messages letters to loved ones, journal fragments, confessions, and warnings readers can uncover the story of what went wrong, and come to know the individual voices of those affected by the zombie crisis.

"[An] unnerving and heartrending memoir..."—Publishers Weekly A fast-paced memoir that gives readers a glimpse into the unbelievable reality of a young girl's 16 months in the notorious "tough love" program the ACLU called "a concentration camp for throwaway kids." I never was a badass. Or a slut, a junkie, a stoner, like they told me I was. I was just a kid looking for something good, something that felt like love. I was a wannabe in a Levi's jean jacket. Anybody could see that. Except my mother. And the professionals at Straight. From the outside, Straight Inc. was a drug rehab. But on the inside it was...well, it was something else. All Cyndy wanted was to be loved and accepted. By age fourteen, she had escaped from her violent home, only to be reported as a runaway and sent to a "drug rehabilitation" facility that changed her world. To the public, Straight Inc. was a place of recovery. But behind closed doors, the program used bizarre and intimidating methods to "treat" its patients. In her raw and fearless memoir, Cyndy Etler recounts her sixteen months in the living nightmare that Straight Inc. considered "healing."

"Gilda, a twenty-something, atheist, animal-loving lesbian, cannot stop ruminating about death. Desperate for relief from her panicky mind and alienated from her repressive family, she responds to a flyer for free therapy at a local Catholic church, and finds herself being greeted by Father Jeff, who assumes she's there for a job interview. Too embarrassed to correct him, Gilda is abruptly hired to replace the recently deceased receptionist Grace. In between trying to memorize the lines to Catholic mass, hiding the fact that she has a new girlfriend, and erecting a dirty dish tower in her crumbling apartment, Gilda strikes up an email correspondence with Grace's old friend. She can't bear to ignore the kindly old woman, who has been trying to reach her friend through the church inbox, but she also can't bring herself to break the bad news. Desperate, she begins impersonating Grace via email. But when the police discover suspicious circumstances surrounding Grace's death, Gilda may have to finally reveal the truth of her mortifying existence."--Amazon.

-Originally published as Straightling: A Memoir in 2012 in the United States by CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform.---Title page verso.